...ch3ry| e an9e|...

experiences extreme emotional upheavals uncountable timez a dae...(seriously, anything is possible if u go from exhilarated 2 down-in-the-dumps in 2 sec.s flat...) may seem v quiet @ 1st...but will warm up soon...









x.her past
Monday, May 16, 2005
The Unspeakables -- ch3ry| yamato zala
I'm in tears now
As I write this,
"The Unspeakables"
Tis' called...
My life was overturned,
Nothing was left to its entirety.
Once a solid family foundation,
Removed from underneath me,
Like Aladdin's magic carpet it was,
'Cept this didn't catch its rider's fall...
We turned to you for solace.
You took over this heavy burden
Of bringing us up.
An uphill task I know,
For who knows what is to come tomorrow.
But there was only you left...
Isn't there?
At times I laugh,
Share a secret smile with her,
When we start talkin' in our tongue.
I know the pain of shuutin' you out of our world.
But I've already figured out,
Laid it out in black and white,
That I'll never be able to make you see.
You were a great mom,
You truly were...
But an invisable wall just passes between us
Everytime I tried to make you see,
In my own way,
In my own terms,
But you never did...
Maybe its just me,
Or am I to turn to,
The talk of 'Fate',
To fnd a reason for this.
Cos' she never had a problem
With this,
At least in my own eyes,
She never did...
Every minor tiff,
Every major blowout,
I get really angry,
Especially the ones that concern
Your prior misconceptions
And numerous misunderstandngs
But i never stood up for myself,
I didn't develop the habit,
Maybe I was just too tired to...
Sadness overwhelmes me now...
Crying buckets as I write this.
I wouldn't know how to answer your questions
About my red-rimmed eyes...
Just let it lie,
just let it lie,
For I fear the tears
Might just fall again.
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